Slowly Moving Forward

The last couple of weeks, just haven't gone as planned. There has not been much in the way of exercising. Oh shoot, I'll be honest, there has been no exercising. BUt the good news is, the lack of exercising has helped my thigh heal. In fact I haven't had pain in it for days which is great considering, I've had pain in it since early June.

The amazing news is I've still continued to lose weight, in fact I'm down another 4 pounds in the last two weeks. So although things haven't gone as planned, at least I'm still moving in the right direction.

The next few weeks will be quite difficult. We have an immense amount of work to be done at my office on my team, 3 appellate briefs and a trial to prep for.

No doubt I'll be very tired and worn out, but hopefully I'll be able to squeeze in some sort of exercise. I have to continue or I'll fall completely out of habit. But each day I remind myself how far I've come so as to not get discouraged and that helps. Now if I can just actually get myself out of bed in the morning and into my workout clothes, that would even be better.

Alas, tomorrow is another day to try and succeed. And with this coach, Django, he might bite my butt if I don't!

Monday Goals

Last week I failed on at least one aspect of my goals, I only worked out Monday through Wednesday. My leg was killing me, and I didn't get much sleep the rest of the week, so I bailed. I didn't start out well today either, as I did not wake up to work out. Instead I slept another 40 minutes since I took Tylenol PM last night, to hopefully get a better night's sleep. It worked, but I was too groggy to work-out. Tonight I'm going to try taking some ibuprofen without a sleep aid, hope that helps, and then get up and work-out tomorrow. I think the sleeping poorly is why I've been an just a horrid mood the last couple of weeks.

So this week, I hope to:

1. Work out Tuesday-Thursday
2. Walk at lunch on Tuesday and Friday
3. Eat more vegetables
4. Drink more water
5. Ride bikes at least once over the weekend.

If I don't, this guy might get me.

Negativity - Just Say No!

So many people in this world are negative all the time. I don't know how they do it. I've been in a grumpy mood for two weeks and I'm exhausted. Being negative or contrary does no good. Instead of putting someone down or in their place, why not build them up, or encourage. If someone says something you disagree with, put it nicely, find a way that doesn't make it seem like you're saying their stupid.

Being negative can bring down a path to healthiness like no other. This, is part of the reason I don't want to walk any more with the woman I've been walking with at work. She's so negative and it feels like a chore. Workouts can't be a chore, they have to be fun and interesting. Or at least encouraging. I'm going to have to find a way to not walk with her. I've been enjoying my knitting lunches, and my leg (well until yesterday) was feeling miles better. Yesterday though it did a 360 on the healing process and by the end of the work day I felt like I could barely walk. I didn't work out yesterday morning, because I was exhausted, and today I didn't work out because of my leg. But I'm going to have to find a combative way around this because I'm not losing hardly any weight at the moment and this is not acceptable. I don't care if I only lose a 1/2 pound a week, but I must continue losing. At least I'm not gaining. Next week I'm going to try to add some different foods into my lunch and I'm going to maybe try some different workouts throughout the week like Pilates. But I think walking will be out for now, because its the walking that seems to aggravate this muscle in my thigh the most. I wonder if I tore the muscle a bit.

I'm going to try hard to not be negative, the one good thing about noticing a character flaw in someone else, is you can hopefully recognize that aspect in yourself then and work hard to not be like that. I'm going to try and stay positive no matter what about my weight loss. It doesn't matter if it takes another 5 years to get the last 50 pounds off, but as long as I'm always striving to reach my goals I won't slip in the other direction and I can feel good about my progress and stability.

I have a quote taped to my monitor at work it says: "Success if ound in making small lifestyle changes for their own sake rather than for loosing weight. Forever is the key concept, ever mindful of the process you design, and ever learning from your mistakes." Author Unknown.

Its a good quote, and one I hope to live by for a very long time.

So be positive today, and remember even in a bad day there are good things.

Good things about this week so far:

1. I've gotten a lot of time to knit and am making great progress on my sweater vest.
2. My desk has stayed clean for about two weeks.
3. I know that I have the power to conquer my battle of weight.

Unreasonableness

Personal Rant Ahead: I HATE PEOPLE THAT ARE UNREASONABLE! Okay hate is a strong word, but they make everyone else around them miserable. Why can't people understand that you can't always have everything your own way. And if you insist on always having things your own way, don't get annoyed when people are forced to ask a question of you because they are afraid if they don't ask they'll do it wrong and they'll you'll get annoyed!

I think they missed the day of kindergarten when it was taught that you can't always have your own way.

Okay personal rant over. You may return to your regular scheduled broadcast.

This Week's Focus

Monday will be my what I'm going to do this week and what I'm not going to do this week posts from now on, okay, at least for a while. So here it goes:

1. I'm not going to focus on how much weight I still need to lose
2. I'm going to get up each morning and workout.
3. I'm not going to walk at lunchtime, but instead take that hour to knit.
4. I'm not going to feel guilty about not walking at lunch time.
5. My leg has been hurting increasingly more, so I think I need to cut out one of my workouts during the day to give it more time to recooperate each day. And since aerobics in the morning is more multi-muscle I will keep that going while cutting out the mid-day walk.
6. I will not let others make me feel guilty about not walking at lunch.
7. I'm going to try to not let little things bug me, and realize I can not control everything, and sometimes even the things I can control, will go haywire for that day.
8. I'm going to remember that each day is a good day, and the bad moments are just that moments that will quickly pass.
9. I'm not going to be mad all week.
10. I'm going to remember I'm allowed to say No.
11. I'm going to realize that I don't have to fix everything immediately.

Now let's see how I do.

Really, only Thursday?

This week seems to be creeping along. And today I'm beyond grumpy. Here's why:

• I dropped my bag in a mud puddle.
• But not just any mud puddle, a puddle in the parking garage that has greasy water.
• It my favorite bag for carrying all my junk, I hope it washes up.
• My Django dog bit me because I was trying to make him go into the kitchen instead of getting his biscuit in bed.
• He never bites down, but he hurt my feelings.
• My knitting is making me mad.
• I have another blasted doctor's appointment tomorrow, and I feel like a big loser over this whole business with pain. And a big baby.
• Nick gets tomorrow off and I have to work.
• I love rainy days, but because of the whole puddle issue, I really hate today and its going to rain all day.
• I wish I was at home in the bed and the dogs had to go to work.
• I forgot my pattern book to look over at lunch.
• I've only lost 1/2 pound this week.

Tuesday - Yep, I double-checked

• I really like the list idea, I'm going to go with it.


• I didn't work out Thursday-Sunday. I have no excuse why not.


• I did work out yesterday, went on a 38 minute walk at lunch (2.5 miles) and did 33 minutes of aerobics in morning.


• Today I did 50 minutes of aerobics, plan to go on a walk at lunch, but its possible the weather will not cooperate.


• Django is sleeping on the bed today. Its raining. He hates the rain.


• Abner is no doubt laying outside in the rain - if it has stopped thundering.


• I bought new pants and tops this weekend, I actually look decent for work again.


• I have to go on a shot for endometriosis. It is supposed to help with the cysts.


• I'll probably have menopausal symptoms. BUt since I already have hot flashes at night, its no big deal.


• Nick has Friday off. I have a doctor's appointment. He'll do something fun. I obviously won't.


• Now comes the difficult part of weightloss. The other side of half way there.


• I'm a tad grumpy today. I think its because my hair is pulled back to tight.


• I'm sleepy. I think its because its gloomy and would be a good day to sit inside and knit.
• This picture has no purpose, but its pretty and makes me happy.
• I should have brought my knitting in case its raining at lunch.